The thing I fear most is losing my self.

September 14, 2020

The thing is,

as a me,

the thing I fear most

is losing my self.

My death,

my annihilation,

total emptiness,

completely being nothing,

not being anything.

The void.

I fear not being me

more than any thing else.

It is this fear,

that is so great

for almost all selves,

that it becomes the main focus (although often unconscious)

for 'me'.

It is the illusion

of being a vulnerable self

that creates most of the fear

the psychological anguish,

and existential danger

that 'I' must

protect myself against.

And most of all

I must ensure that

I avoid noticing

the essential emptiness

that is the essence

of everything

including what I had called


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